Weekends Are for Quieting
Still Center
and in from out,
and here from there.
A long leap,
an incandescent fall
from magnificent
to naked, frail, small,
through space,
between stars,
into our chill night air,
shrunk, in infant grace,
to our damp, cramped
earthy place
among all
the shivering sheep.
there he lies,
fast asleep.
the worst our kind can do, and shudder to know
the taint in our own selves, that awe
cracks the mind’s shell and enters the heart:
not to a flower, not to a dolphin,
to no innocent form
but to this creature vainly sure
it and no other is god-like, God
(out of compassion for our ugly
failure to evolve) entrusts,
as guest, as brother,
the Word.
A Lenten Journey: Climbing to Calvary – Day FORTY – HOLY SATURDAY
A Lenten Journey: Climbing to the Cross – Day THIRTY-NINE – GOOD FRIDAY
Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from the words of my groaning?
by night, but I find no rest.
you are the praise of Israel.
they trusted and you delivered them.
in you they trusted and were not disappointed.
I am scorned by everyone, despised by the people. All who see me mock me;
they hurl insults, shaking their heads.
“let the LORD rescue him.
Let him deliver him,
since he delights in him.”
you made me feel secure on my mother’s breast. From birth I was cast on you;
from my mother’s womb you have been my God. Do not be far from me,
for trouble is near
and there is no one to help.
strong bulls of Bashan encircle me.
open their mouths wide against me.
and all my bones are out of joint.
My heart has turned to wax;
it has melted within me.
and my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth;
you lay me in the dust of death.
a pack of villains encircles me;
they pierce my hands and my feet.
people stare and gloat over me.
and cast lots for my garment.
You are my strength; come quickly to help me. Deliver me from the sword,
my precious life from the power of the dogs. Rescue me from the mouth of the lions;
save me from the horns of the wild oxen.
in the assembly I will praise you.
All you descendants of Jacob, honor him!
Revere him,
all you descendants of Israel!
the suffering of the afflicted one;
he has not hidden his face from him
but has listened to his cry for help.
before those who fear you I will fulfill my vows. The poor will eat and be satisfied;
those who seek the LORD will praise him—
may your hearts live forever!
will remember and turn to the LORD,
and all the families of the nations
will bow down before him,
and he rules over the nations.
all who go down to the dust will kneel before him—
those who cannot keep themselves alive.
future generations will be told about the Lord. They will proclaim his righteousness,
declaring to a people yet unborn:
He has done it!
Yet, there is beauty in these words. There is breathtaking beauty.
he had to feel what we feel,
to endure what we endure,
to suffer through what we must all suffer through:
that stunning sense of being alone in the universe.
A Lenten Journey: Climbing to Calvary – Day THIRTY-EIGHT – MAUNDY THURSDAY
So Jesus sent two of them into Jerusalem with these instructions: “As you go into the city, a man carrying a pitcher of water will meet you. Follow him. At the house he enters, say to the owner, ‘The Teacher asks: Where is the guest room where I can eat the Passover meal with my disciples?’ He will take you upstairs to a large room that is already set up. That is where you should prepare our meal.”
So the two disciples went into the city and found everything just as Jesus had said, and they prepared the Passover meal there.
In the evening Jesus arrived with the twelve disciples. As they were at the table eating, Jesus said, “I tell you the truth, one of you eating with me here will betray me.”
Greatly distressed, each one asked in turn, “Am I the one?”
He replied, “It is one of you twelve who is eating from this bowl with me. For the Son of Man must die, as the Scriptures declared long ago. But how terrible it will be for the one who betrays him. It would be far better for that man if he had never been born!”
As they were eating, Jesus took some bread and blessed it. Then he broke it in pieces and gave it to the disciples, saying, “Take it, for this is my body. And he took a cup of wine and gave thanks to God for it. He gave it to them, and they all drank from it. And he said to them, “This is my blood, which confirms the covenant between God and his people. It is poured out as a sacrifice for many. I tell you the truth, I will not drink wine again until the day I drink it new in the Kingdom of God.”
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this strange evening meal with its co-mingling of the old and the new,
this mix of the expected and the bewildering.
Gathering in a tight circle...
Wishing his betrayer had never been born…
Blessing the bread,
tearing it to pieces,
parceling it out to his friends,
naming it his body…
Thanking God for the wine,
passing a single cup for them all to share,
naming it his blood.
What did they guess?
the bread…
and the wine…
what we love, we consume.
A Lenten Journey: Climbing to the Cross – Day THIRTY-SEVEN
don’t avoid my request!
I can’t sit still while complaining.
at the wicked person’s racket,
because they bring disaster on me
and harass me furiously.
I’m shaking all over.
I’d fly away and rest.
I’d run so far away! I’d live in the desert. I’d hurry to my hideout,
far from the rushing wind and storm.
Confuse their language
because I see violence and conflict
in the city.
and evil and misery live inside it.
never leave the town square.
I could handle that.
It’s not someone who hates me
who is exalted over me—
I could hide from them.
my close companion, my good friend!
let them go to the grave alive
because evil lives with them—even inside them!
and the LORD will rescue me.
I complain and moan
so that God will hear my voice.
though there are many who are out to get me.
will hear and humble them
because they don’t change
and they don’t worship God.
breaking his covenant.
they are really drawn swords:
Let bloodthirsty and treacherous people
not live out even half their days.
But me?
I imagine we all have.
All of it.
You, too?
A Lenten Journey: Climbing to the Cross – Day THIRTY-SIX
self-aggrandizement,
self-promotion.
that seek to quibble and quaver over fine points,
that imply he is out of turn,
out of place,
out of his element.
He will not be used.
He will not be distracted.
He will not be anyone but who he is.
A Lenten Journey: Climbing to Calvary – Day THIRTY-FIVE
Nine times Paul uses some form of the word ‘comfort,’ both noun and verb.
That’s a lotta times in seven short verses, don’t you think? Maybe, just maybe, this is an important idea.
Maybe, just maybe, Paul knows that the church in Corinth – and the church anywhere, anytime – needs to see that word printed out a whole lotta times.
And seeing it here reminds me of that verse in the Shepherd’s Psalm – “thy rod and thy staff, they comfort me…”
The same word – but used in a way that makes me stop for a minute. Stop and wonder if maybe some of the ideas in that psalm might be applied to Paul’s writing – and to our own lives.
Most of us probably have a picture that springs to mind when we think of the word ‘comfort’:
a favorite spot/blanket/person;
a particular kind of food;
an activity that makes us feel better, inside and out;
a word or phrase that stills and centers us;
a hug – a pat on the back – a sympathetic face.
But I’m guessing our go-to picture probably does not include a ‘rod’ or a ‘staff.’
So that got me thinking. Maybe I’m stuck in my oh-so-comfortable rut when it comes to understanding just what this whole idea means. Maybe there are ways to be comforted that I’ve never dreamed of or experienced. Or maybe I have experienced them – but in a way I did not immediately recognize as comfort.
Maybe Paul is talking about things like:
a friend/spouse/mentor who can say to us, ‘enough’ – encouraging us to set a boundary/say ‘no’/stop for a while;
a verse/book/poem/video/movie/song/blog post that catches our eye, our ear and then our heart, reminding us there is ‘more to life than increasing its speed;’
a skilled listener, who can – just by sitting quietly and asking a careful question or two – help us to realize where we have taken a misstep and offer us the gentlest of course corrections.
Because sometimes I think we get so caught up in our own spinning wheels that we lose touch with the truth that we NEED comfort, we need someone to truly see us, to help us step out of the dis-comfort we’re drowning in without realizing it.
Sometimes we need the breath of the Spirit – often delivered to us through the presence of another human person – to blow fiercely enough to stop us in our tracks, to remind us that we’re creating a regular lifestyle addiction to overdoing everything.
Because sometimes the ‘trouble’ we find ourselves in is the result of…
our own driven-ness,
our inability to know our yeses well enough to say ‘no’ when we need to,
our eternal need to be needed.
Maybe that’s when we need the comfort of a rod and staff. Maybe that’s when we need a different way of experiencing the ‘comfort that abounds in Christ.’
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God of All Comfort, help us to keep our eyes open, our hearts pliable, our spirits willing to be comforted in exactly the way you desire us to be. And empower us, by the gracious breath of your Spirit, to be open to providing comfort – in all its permutations and colors – to others in need. For Jesus’ sake.
A Lenten Journey: Climbing to Calvary – PALM / SIXTH Sunday
Blessings on the one who comes in the name of the Lord!
Hail to the King of Israel!”
Jesus found a young donkey and rode on it, fulfilling the prophecy that said:
Look, your King is coming,
riding on a donkey’s colt.”
None.
Really looks like.
It has not one thing to do with power.
It’s not about taking anything by force.
It’s about the first becoming last.
It’s about the littlest, the least, the lost and the lonely.
It’s about reconciliation between God and humans.
It’s about wholeness,
and healing,
and learning to do the hard, hard work of love.
and it’s about life with hope.
Stepping Quietly into Holy Week
I have something to tell you.
Attention, Earth,
I’ve got a mouth full of words.
my words arrive like morning dew,
Like a sprinkling rain on new grass,
like spring showers on the garden.
For it’s God‘s Name I’m preaching—
respond to the greatness of our God!
The Rock: His works are perfect,
and the way he works is fair and just;
A God you can depend upon, no exceptions,
a straight-arrow God.
His messed-up, mixed-up children,
his non-children,
throw mud at him but none of it sticks.”