Why are you so far from saving me,
so far from the words of my groaning?
by night, but I find no rest.
you are the praise of Israel.
they trusted and you delivered them.
in you they trusted and were not disappointed.
I am scorned by everyone, despised by the people. All who see me mock me;
they hurl insults, shaking their heads.
“let the LORD rescue him.
Let him deliver him,
since he delights in him.”
you made me feel secure on my mother’s breast. From birth I was cast on you;
from my mother’s womb you have been my God. Do not be far from me,
for trouble is near
and there is no one to help.
strong bulls of Bashan encircle me.
open their mouths wide against me.
and all my bones are out of joint.
My heart has turned to wax;
it has melted within me.
and my tongue sticks to the roof of my mouth;
you lay me in the dust of death.
a pack of villains encircles me;
they pierce my hands and my feet.
people stare and gloat over me.
and cast lots for my garment.
You are my strength; come quickly to help me. Deliver me from the sword,
my precious life from the power of the dogs. Rescue me from the mouth of the lions;
save me from the horns of the wild oxen.
in the assembly I will praise you.
All you descendants of Jacob, honor him!
Revere him,
all you descendants of Israel!
the suffering of the afflicted one;
he has not hidden his face from him
but has listened to his cry for help.
before those who fear you I will fulfill my vows. The poor will eat and be satisfied;
those who seek the LORD will praise him—
may your hearts live forever!
will remember and turn to the LORD,
and all the families of the nations
will bow down before him,
and he rules over the nations.
all who go down to the dust will kneel before him—
those who cannot keep themselves alive.
future generations will be told about the Lord. They will proclaim his righteousness,
declaring to a people yet unborn:
He has done it!
Yet, there is beauty in these words. There is breathtaking beauty.
he had to feel what we feel,
to endure what we endure,
to suffer through what we must all suffer through:
that stunning sense of being alone in the universe.
You are so wise, Diana.
I felt “alone in the universe” on Monday. Then my husband came home, got me out of bed and said, “Let’s go hiking.” Where there was drought, there were literal puddles.
You are kind, Megan. I don’t think it’s wisdom at all – I’ve lived a while and in recent years at least, I’ve tried to pay attention. That’s about it. I’m still as flummoxed by a lot of life as I ever have been, just struggling my way through like everybody else. I’m glad you went hiking Monday. For you that is a primary way through the valley. Walking helps me – hiking, hmmm…lousy knees, so not so much – except for the views, if the trail is nice and shady. See what I mean? Not wise at all – just lazy and deeply attached to my comforts!
We had the most meaningful and beautiful Good Friday service tonight … celebrating that red love.
I’m so glad you had a good service, Glenda! We left this morning for a week’s vacation with our extended family on the central CA coast, so we have missed our special services this year. We will go to Easter worship nearby this big old house we’ve rented for all 16 of us, but tonight we stayed here and enjoyed the beauty of this spot – spectacular. Hope your Sunday is filled with joy!